Some of you, I think, are wondering where I have gone.
Well.... I have fallen off the face of the Earth and I apologize. I know you are just dying to know what interesting things are going on in my life (wink wink) and so I will tell you.
This past month has been a rough one for me. Why, you ask? Well, honestly I'm not sure...ok well, some things I know why, but others.....?
Many of you know that I do not function well without my 10 hours a day of sleep. You think I'm joking??? I'm not.
And you also know that Gracie was trying to get used to a "big girl bed". Well my need for sleep and Gracie and her new bed are meshing about as well as oil and water.
So, I'm tired.
This month, after practically begging my doc for thyroid medicine, I was finally started on the lowest dosage.
Yes, thyroid medicine. Last year I was told I had an enlarged thyroid and to me the way I'd been feeling for so long finally made sense, only I was also told that my thyroid levels were "normal". So, despite having symptom after symptom of an under active thyroid, I forgot about it and just went on.
Well, recently I've gotten a "bee in my bonnet" and decided that the nagging feeling that something is being missed with my thyroid needs to be addressed.
So I've been trying to learn all I can, and the more I learn the more I am convinced that there is a problem.
Wish me luck on my quest to get my health back.
It's sort of consumed me and it turns out it's a bit draining.
So, I'm tired.
Many of you also know that we have been trying to have another little one since Feb-March-ish of 2007.
My body isn't co-operating. So as a result I have had 3 miscarriages since then with the last one being as recent as this last week.
It turns out that's a bit draining as well.
So...I'm tired.
So all this tiredness along with my lack of energy :) and well...you have an absent blogger.;)
Today, however, was a good day.
Gracie has been doing soooo much better the past week and today I actually felt like I want to rejoin life.
I would still like to get away, all by myself, for a little while, to a little secluded island waiting for me with a luscious bed tucked cozily away in a little hut and sleep for days in the warm sun and cool breeze....aaaahhhh...but I think I can get back to the simple things that I enjoy (i.e. blogging) and some things that I don't enjoy so much, but that desperatley need to be done (i.e. dishes).
I'm pretty sure that there isn't one of you out there that wouldn't like to tuck yourself away on a little island somewhere for a few days as well, Eh?
Thursday, October 2, 2008
So..I am tired.
Posted by Laurie at 10/02/2008 09:48:00 PM
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wow Laurie, your life has been draining!!! You know what is best for yourself, but just an idea---you may want to put trying to conceive on hold for a couple months while you see if the thyroid medication works. Your body has got to be worn out from all those miscarriages, and mixing pregnancy hormones with thyroid meds while you're not feeling normal to begin with might just exacerbate the issue. But, you and Gus know what is best for your own little family. I'm thinking of you!
I have been missing your blogs and it is good to "catch up" with you. I know...it is lame that I communicate via blog comments more than writing e-mails or calling!
Anyway, like Amy, I am sure thinking of you and hoping that things get back to normal and that something can be figured out with the miscarriages...I am sure that alone would be so draining.
We sure miss you guys!
Oh Laurie! I am so sorry about this last week (and the not sleeping - 10 hours? really? that would be awesome). I'm thinking of you. Much love.
We've been fighting with Kaden staying in his big boy bed too. Most nights we just stick him in the crib (Asher is in the co-sleeper in our room and we are soooo ready to move him to the crib) so we don't have to fight with him. Hopefully we will get him to stay in bed soon!
I'm so sad to hear about your miscarriges. I had one before I got pregnant with Asher and it is very draining in so many ways. You don't need any excuses you have reasons to be drained.
Good for you fighting for yourself with your doc! Good for you listening to your body! I have a good blogger friend who had thyroid problems and had some trouble conceiving because of it, I think. She just had a baby boy- about a week ago. Check out her website http://mistylynnwhat.blogspot.com/
And don't be afraid to e-mail her- she's wonderful and LDS too- her e-mail is in her profile. Maybe she would know something that can help you.
You are in my prayers. I hope this is the beginning of some better and more energetic weeks for you.
life doesn't seem to ever stop, does it? that's why it's great to have friends who support you. we'll definitely keep you in our prayers...sorry we're too far away to do more, like have gracie over to play with the girls so you can take a nap!!!
I wish I could make everything better for you... it used to be a little easier when we were kids :)
Hang in there... Love you!
That bed looks so luxurious!
Good luck in your quest to overcome your thyroid issues. We're thinking of you!
Wow Hermana, I am so sorry for you. We had a couple miscarriages trying to have our first, I can't imagine the drain and aftermath while taking care of a toddler. No wonder you haven't been blogging. We'll be praying for you, and go ahead and be pro-active about your body and how it's taken care of--you're the boss of your own body and that inner voice is a powerful thing! i love you!
I'm so sorry. I wish I had some super duper advice to give right now but, I can't come up with anything. I really hope that the thyroid meds help you! And like I told Gus on his blog, maybe you should look into a second opinion. It seems as if your OB should be doing some extra testing at this point.?? We love you guys! Wish we were closer so we could take Gracie for some playdates while you nap and just enjoy some time for yourself.
You're amazing! You're going through so much and manage to keep a positive outlook on things of this life. Many wouldn't/couldn't; you just keep hanging in there!
My hubby requires at least 10 hours a nights sleep, and even though it drives me crazy, I do understand your need. You poor thing, must be exhausted!
I, too, am so sorry to hear about your miscarriages. Use every ounce of faith that you've got, combine it with the Atonement and Heavenly Father has promised to heal your broken heart. I know this, for I have used it. Have your hubby give you 15 blessings a day if that's what you feel you need - the power of the Priesthood is amazing, take full advantage of that blessing!
And lastly, feel free to fly on down here! Emma would LOVE to have a playmate & you can sleep in as long as you'd like! :) Love you!
So sorry to hear that things have been rough. It makes things worse when you don't get any sleep. Hope that Gracie will do better in her big girl bed so you can get some rest. We are thinking of you!
We love you guys Laurie. I'm not really good at saying what I feel, so I'm just going to say that we love you and that we are thinking of you guys during this hard time. I wish that I could be there to help out with Gracie when you just need some time by yourself or couple time. If there is anything that I can do from here, please let me know. I love you Laurie!!
I'm so sorry thing have been so rough lately. Know that your friends care and think of you often even though we're far away. I wish we were still close by to hang out more. We'd love to have Gracie over to play to give you some much needed down time. I'm with you on the 10 our sleep.... I can function on less but never feel fully rested unless I get more. We miss you and hope you're feeling better soon. We'll keep you all in our prayers.
Sorry life's been so rough on you lately. No wonder you're so tired. I'm so glad that I can count you as one of my fellow "sleeper" friends. Only we can truly appreciate that heavenly bed on an exotic island somewhere:)
P.S. I'm glad you got that comb out of your hair without cutting it too.
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